Saturday, January 20, 2007

can love be unwelcome?

Love can come in many forms... Dutifully giving a toffee whenever we meet, caring admonitions, a glance that says so much, an invite for coffee for no reason at all, a chewing gum in the middle of a class in which I'm nodding off to sleep..
The distances and differences are so much, yet there is so much closeness and care. One worries for me, the other dotes on me. And I simply bask in the combined warmth of their affection. Not giving, just selfishly receiving. Because its NOT THEIR affection that I want.
Although it is a manifestation of some kind of love, I don't want it. They both are such wonderful friends, I've never had male friends who actually cared or bothered about me. But I can't reciprocate it to them. ...

2 comments:

Periwinkle said...

ya its like wanting a mango and someone hands you an orange not that you dont like oranges but then its the mango you want badly...Bad imagery but true..it happens at times dont blame yourself or feel bad about it

quintaqua said...

imagery if fine. u hit the nail on the head